Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Random thoughts

I sure love reading people's blogs. I see a differnet side to people-even my own kids that I thought I knew!!!

Why is it easier to write things than say them? I have always written letters when I want to express myself. I guess that way emotions and my lack of language skills don't get in the way.

Does anyone ever feel spiritually shallow? I fight that feeling off and on even when I read the scriptures, pray and do my church calling. Am I just going through the motions? I don't like feeling that way. I want to feel "anxiously engaged" and close to Heavenly Father. I genuinely love to serve Him and yet, I struggle with this lack of gusto!

Last night B and I played Balderdash with our friends. We laughed. I love to laugh!

My friend Lisa and I 'work out' every week day. We do cardio three days and weights two days. We talk about the economy, our great families, the elections, and a miriad of other subjects, but it seems like we always talk about being fat and what we can do about it. At my age, I have lost the motivation and the faith in being able to lose weight. (Been there, done that type of thing over and over and over again!) Yesterday we were amazed when we realized that being fat is the biggest trial of her life at this time.(not mine:)) Oh how blessed we are!

3 comments:

Adam and Anya said...

I think about being spiritually shallow too. I had a similar experience this week...

I was beating myself up about not making a difference in the world and then Adam helped me realize - it's the adversary AGAIN!

He wants us to have such low self esteem. He wants us to think we're spiritually shallow because then we're no longer thinking of God and serving others. This is a sneaky way he gets us off the right path.

Adam pointed this out to me this week. He said, the adversay IS attacking you if you're feeling bad about yourself like that.

Within minutes, I went to my room and knelt for a prayer. The spirit came back to me so strongly and I found myself doing the Lord's work again (which happened to be the dishes).

Satan doesn't give up...no matter how spiritually strong we are.

wow...I just wrote a whole lot.

Mindy said...

I agree with Anya. Plus, the more good things your doing, the stronger he gets.
It's nice that you work out. That's more motivation than a lot of people have...like me! I think that if your working out then you should be allowed to eat whatever you want...without guilt!

Nicole Hunter said...

I know what you mean about feeling "spiritually shallow". I really liked what Anya said and I appreciate that comment and think she's so right!
I have to tell you though that I have always looked up to you and your family! You have always been so sweet to me and one of the most positive people I've known!
And during the short time Daniel worked for John, he grew a great love and respect for him as well. We just love you guys and think you're the best! :)